I can’t remember a time when I couldn’t think of something to write. If anything, there is usually so much going on inside my head, that I can’t seem to choose one topic. Today alone, I’ve considered everything from choosing alternative healthcare versus the medical model to tackling clutter, and at least a dozen other topics. Then it occurred to me that the reason I always have so much going on inside my head is that I am always trying to figure out how to improve my life.
Now, that might sound like I’m discontent or just resistant to what is. But I’m a generally happy person, primarily because I practice being grateful for everything, but I’ll save that for another blog post. I’ve had a fascination with self-help books since I was a teenager. I discovered Tony Robbins on a late night infomercial for Unlimited Power when I was twenty-something. Since then, I have been involved in personal growth groups, 12-Step groups, and various accountability relationships.
So here I am, nearly fifty years old, with a wide variety of life experiences. I believe it is my responsibility to take what comes my way and make the best of it. So when my son was diagnosed with Autism, I started researching how diet and exercise could improve his quality of life. When I realized that people I loved were addicts, I began my own recovery through a 12-Step program for families of alcoholics. And when I was hit by a bus (literally… go figure, a teacher hit by a school bus… and on foot), I took an online trauma survivors’ class.
Going back to the subject of gratitude for just a moment, this last incident was what essentially brought me back to blogging. Once I had overcome the worst of the pain and had begun the healing process, I began to realize that this accident was a gift. It actually sounds a bit crazy when I say it out loud, but it’s true. The one big hurdle in my life that I had not yet tried to surmount wasn’t trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up, but actually taking action to make it happen.
Some time ago it became clear to me that life coaching would incorporate many of the things I had learned and was passionate about along my own path. And in all honesty, my husband actually said to me one night, “It sounds like you want to be a life coach.” Coming from my “plaid is always in style”, Mr. Linear, I could not believe he mouthed the words that I was too embarrassed to say. Since then, I have been gradually getting used to the idea of doing what I really want to do with my life versus what I feel obligated to do because I have a degree for which I still have student loan debt. But until I was faced with my own mortality, I did nothing to make this dream a reality.
Since the beginning of 2014, I have written out my business plan, commissioned an artist to design a logo, and began blogging again. Not too shabby, especially since it’s only the 6th, huh? I said all of this in my non-linear, floral way (inside joke for my husband, in case he’s creeping my page again), to say that whatever is going on in your head… whatever you are passionate about… do it! Don’t wait until you are physically unable. Don’t wait until you aren’t afraid. Just take one step, and then another. And if you need it, there is always “help along the path.”