It’s funny how quickly things can change. August 21st I wrote my last blog post until tonight. I had only missed a few days of posting in 8 months and then, one day, I stopped.
I don’t quite know why. I just did.
So here it is, more than 2 months later, and I begin… again.
A lot has happened since my last post, and I will get to all of it soon enough. I have been doing a lot of writing, although it hasn’t been here. I am writing a Newsletter, doing some copy writing, and am embarking on a creative writing endeavor as well. In addition, I am journaling (partly for a book study I am leading, and partly as a component of my PTSD treatment).
I am not going back to my hard-core commitment to post every day, simply because I am doing so much writing. Ironically, I may just become habituated to daily posting anyway. I do miss the phoneography challenge in which I participated on Mondays, as well as my Wisdom Wednesday quotes. So, who knows…? I just know that I have missed my diary-gone-public.
And I’m baa… aack!
If we did all the things we are capable of, we would literally astound ourselves.
~Thomas A. Edison
On this Wisdom Wednesday, I encourage you to do something you don’t think you are capable of doing. Astound yourself!
Today I received this 1000 Likes badge. It reminded me that not so long ago, I kept my blog private (my husband says that’s a diary). I am really enjoying being “out there,” even though it can be a little scary. I don’t pay much attention to my blogging stats, but I can’t help but enjoy hitting the milestones. I am looking forward to the next one, which will be 200 followers. So if you are new to blogging, keep it up. If you are thinking about blogging, get started. And if you are blogging privately, well that’s a diary. Happy Blogging!
Often we look for miracles, thinking they will occur as a result of something outside ourselves. I have found that frequently, we create miracles. Sometimes it is because of what are willing to do. More times than not, we create miracles by who we are willing to be.
Choose a big goal you want to reach. Do what needs to be done to make it happen. More importantly, be who you need to be to create the results you want to see… and create a miracle!
Today was one of those days that anything that could go wrong seemed to do just that. Fortunately, none of what occurred was life threatening or insurmountable. I am grateful for every day I have… and I am glad I get to start with a clean slate tomorrow.
Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure… than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat.
When I experience an epic fail, I remember… it’s epic. If I wasn’t attempting anything big, I would be in that safe “gray” place. On this Wisdom Wednesday, I will remember that failure is a sign that I am truly living!
Sometime today it dawned on me that I had broken my agreement to post every day this year. I did not post yesterday and didn’t even think about it. I thought this was strange since my blogging has become so habitual.
At first I was angry with myself for breaking my agreement. Then I remembered, I keep agreements to expand myself not to punish myself. Then I counted to see how many days in a row I had posted. I actually started a couple of days before the new year began, so I had a total of 213 posts in a row.
So the conversation has been going back and forth in my head periodically throughout the day.
“I can’t believe I didn’t even think about it!”
“It’s not the end of the world.”
“No matter what I do now, I can’t complete the agreement to post every day this year.”
“It’s not about perfection. It’s about pushing yourself.”
Then, as I observe the voices in my head, I laugh at how funny it all is. Me, arguing with myself… and all over something that is already done.
So now I am recommitting to my agreement to post every day for the rest of the year, accepting my imperfect record, and eager to see if I can complete the last 5 months of this year without missing a day. (If I was really interested in punishing myself, I would start all over again. Not happening!)
I am just going to keep reminding myself, 213 posts in a row… not too shabby.
Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!
~Attributed to Goethe by W.H. Murray in The Scottish Himalayan Expedition
The boldness of taking action, especially when I don’t know how everything will play out, sets things in motion I couldn’t even imagine. On this Wisdom Wednesday, I am reminded once again to keep doing the next right thing and then expect great results.
A few days ago, I posted a link to a podcast entitled The Secret to Dealing with Difficult People. It seems as though a message usually comes to me in multiple ways within a discrete window of time. This week is a prime example. The title of the message at my church today was “Is Someone Driving You Crazy?”
Don Miguel Ruiz’s second of The Four Agreements is “Don’t Take Anything Personally.” This applies well when dealing with people that drive you crazy. Remember that even if someone attacks you personally, don’t take it personally. It is something in yourself that brings up your reaction to others. This can be a hard pill to swallow. Whether it is true or not, if you come from this place you have some control over the situation.
When someone else is getting “under my skin,” I remind myself that my reaction is about something within me. It might be something I don’t like about myself. Maybe it is a reminder of something that I tolerated in my past, and am not willing to tolerate now. Regardless, it is my non-acceptance of what is that is causing my discomfort. I also remind myself that when I feel someone is being a “Pain in the Posterior,” I can choose to look at them as a “Partner in Progress.” That is, they are helping me to learn patience, acceptance, and reminding me of how I do not want to be.
My counselor gave me a journaling assignment today. She asked me if I had ever journaled and I told her that I write every day. Although it isn’t technically a journal, this blog often serves the same purpose. It lets me get my thoughts out of my head where I can then look at them from another perspective.
As I was driving home, I thought about all the writing I have been doing since I made my writing agreement for this year. I committed to beginning a larger writing project as a result of a class I am taking at my church. I am also doing some copywriting and have been asked to do some guest blogging.
I have always loved writing and have done lots of it over the years. The primary difference in the writing I did back then and the writing I am doing now, is that much of the writing I am doing now is out there for the world to see. I would not let others read my writing even up until this year.
On one hand, writing publicly is intimidating. On the other hand, it is very freeing. In a way, I feel like I have come out of hiding.
Now I must go begin an outline that I committed to draft, work on my journal entry, and begin drafting a blog post for another site… and I’m happy about this!